Saturday, November 29, 2008

why?

why do we all have to grow up and be somebody who is held responsible for their own actions?! why can't we all just stay little, young, irresponsible, happy?! why do we have to grow up and make our lives complicated?! why do we have to grow up and to get hurt (emotionally) and hurt others?!
i wonder is their even one single positive side to being 'all grown up!'

i hate being grown up today. i just wish i could be that cute, little, carefree, happy girl, when i just couldn't stay sad after a my favorite chocolate ice-cream, when i did not have a care in the world (except my homework, of course!) when i had plenty of time to dream about how beautiful life will be (now, obviously i know the reality) when i did not have to worry about how others will judge me, when i did not have to think about how i will be interpreted, when i use to feel guilty after lying (not like now, when i feel guilty for not feeling guilty enough after lying!) when i used to have fairytale dreams, when i knew that my favorite color was pink, when i assumed that every one is happy in their lives and when i believed that this world is a beautiful place!

now, it aches my heart to pull myself back to reality which is just the opposite.

3 comments:

Whitelighter said...

people who get stuck outside reality tend to become insane or profoundly brilliant. there is a 50-50 chance of either.
the safer option is Temporarily Suspended Disbelief.

la kahlfin fan said...

Hey! My favourite color's pink too!
Sorry I happen to have seized on the most superficial part of the post, but the thing is that if I ever admit it to people, they give me the most disgusted expressions - as if I'm just like that Elle character in Legally Blonde.

And hey, I think if you want to retain some of your childishness, I say you just do it and dont give a crap about the rest of the world.

I never care what people think when I tell them my favourite movies are all Disney cartoons.

ananya garg said...

@ la kahlfin fan

thanx... that helped :)