Wednesday, November 4, 2009

how i wish i were a rain drop...

with the sound of the rain pouring, outside
how much do i wonder on the inside
trying to verify the reason to my existence
the feeling inside me is so intense.

when i know that there is none to embrace me,
when i am a million pieces inside.
unlike these rain drops, who have the earth
to embrace them, with its arms wide open, outside.

the raindrops fall free from the sky, free and fearless
eager to embrace the earth with their love, outside
unlike me, falling on broken wings, with a fear
of the stark reality of my loneliness deep inside.

how I wish i were a rain drop,
just like one of them falling, outside.
for i'd be sure that my love awaits me
and i won't feel, like i feel now, inside.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

The latest love of my life!

well... its a girl. and m so totally in love with her. i have spent quite some time of my previous summer breaks with her but this time our bonding is magical. i have my internship also going on during this summer which is why i only get to spend the evenings with her. its actually sad but i look forward to coming home after a tiring day's work!

no matter whatever time i get back home, she's there waiting for me. and then she'll be in the kitchen with me as i make a cup of black coffee for me and as well as her. just a bit though, for her coz she dosen't happen to like its taste much. and as we drink our cups (of different sizes) of coffee, we discuss our day and she listens to each of my crap story with equal curiosity. everytime. and i have no idea how much sense she's able to make out of them but its really nice to talk to her. sometimes it feels like no one else pays so much attention to whatever i have to say.

and after i am a bit relaxed its time for fun! we play stupid games,but, oh! how i love them. the best one is to stick our tongues out and see who gets to lick the other tongue first! i know how foolish it sounds but its so much fun with her. and then we dance on the ketchup song and we roll over the bed laughing and we've made up some funny steps on 'the final countdown' song and we go crazy doing them! then we play hide and seek which she seems to enjoy a lot. and after all this she doesn't want to go back to her home, so, she stays back as i make dinner for myself. and she really likes what i cook. :)

and then finally when her mom comes to call her home for dinner she has to leave but she always leaves with a promise to be back tomorow evening. which she always fulfills. only until today. and thats the reason of the post. she's not home today and m missing her!

anyway, she'llbe here tomorrow and then probably i'll show her this! now m off to buy her a birthday present for her birthday is only a few days away and this year she'll be three! :D
i cant wait to dress her up like a birthday barbie! :D :D

Monday, June 22, 2009

almost lovers...

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot walk the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Monday, March 23, 2009

eureka!! what an idea sir ji! :)

why cant there be condoms for pen drives?! who gave them the divine right to go fucking all the computers and infecting them?!
okay, i know there is something called as an anti virus and u should perform the virus scan before opening any pen drive, but, there are some viruses who are like deadly. even these virus scans cant control them from infecting your computer.

and, for the worst, i have got my self into this situation. after carefully protecting my lappy for more than two years now, i finally gave way to this deadly virus who's taking over control on my lappy. my poor baeby!

i feel like an irresponsible, looser parent who never told her child to use protection! but, then i guess its not a good idea. as in, the whole job of a condom is to not to let the transfer happen, whereas, that is exactly why we made pen drives.

but, then i find my self thinking that the real job of a condom is to give you what you want without giving you what you don't. that's the whole art of it!
so, can't we make condoms for these cocky pen drives which can help us transfer the data without transferring the infection?! i really wish there is some way!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

welcome! my blue baby :)

okay... so, finally i bought my first ever ipod last week as my advanced birthday gift. the color i wanted was baby purple which i had first seen almost six months back. and that became my #1 on my 'must have' list. i literally lusted for it. but as luck would have it, i did not get that color. it was depressing. so, i ended up buying a bright blue. it looks 'jhintak.' my purple looked far more elegant. but its alright, m happy enough to own one.

but the problem is i still have to get over its charm. its been almost a week, and i would have just sent a few hours without my blue baby in this entire week! i am like addicted to it. i knew this would happen. its my nature. i get attracted to things very fast but, their charm wears off even faster! but in this case it hasen't happened yet and what scares me is that i dont even see that coming. i sleep with it plugged in my ears, i go to the loo with it, brush my teeth with my blue baby still plugged in. except when i have to take a shower and and like some two hours in the entire day, m listening to it.

hey, it just struck me, maybe this is the reason i dont feel like takin a shower in this sticky wether also!
i miss onto conversations with my freinds. i dont hear my phone ringing, and even when sometimes i do, i dont take calls if m listning to one of my faves which happens to be my entire playlist. (almost)

its a good feeling to be in my music world all the time as it is the only other important thing i need to survive in this world. but then, its crazzy! my mind always stays preoccupied with songs. my roomie told me the other day that i was humming even when i was sleeping.. could that be possible! i dont have a clue! but, i surely need to cut down this mania or ill grow completely insane!

Saturday, February 28, 2009

a dream that i hope will come true :)

i want to make a new resolution.

my friends and people who know me tell me that how nice i am to them or how helping i am or whatever. surely, it is good to hear all good things about yourself, especially when the compliments come without any efforts made!

but, somewhere, i know they are not completely true. there are people whom i completely dislike. and i end up being bluntly rude to them, every time. and then i regret. because i want to be somebody who is able of unconditional acceptance. i have a long way to go for that, but, m sure i am capable of it. the dream i have, for that, there is no place for any sort of hatred. spreading love, laughter and happiness satisfies me. makes me content. gives me my peace of mind.

so all i want to do is promise myself that i'll give up all the grudges, hatred, pain i hold against a lot of people and start fresh.

love, does change your life. and slowly, i am realizing this. if we just try spreading love through all its forms, this world be a lot more beautiful.

this is just a personal feeling:
it is a great feeling to know that you are loved, that a heart cares for you, that someone's thinking of you. its beautiful. it makes you feel on top of the world, makes you happy, gives you an assurance that you are never alone.
to earn someone's true love is the greatest treasure one can ever have.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

powerpuff gays!

this little incident that happened a couple of days back made me aware of the 'gay' power. i was at a food court with a girl friend, a guy friend and a gay friend of mine, when this guy came up to us and asked to join us. my guy and gay friends had gone to order some food. and we simply said yes, knowing that he'll have to move once are other friends were back. we thought it'll be some fun! but the guy was no fun. he turned out to be pretty cheap and when we asked him to leave he wouldn't. so, i sent a text to my guy friend telling him about this guy and asking him to get back. he was their in no time and asked the guy to getup and leave. the guy refused and said if we have a problem we should leave. i got up to leave but my other girl friend found 'our leaving' pretty insulting and refused to leave. so it was time for some action. i am a very peaceful person and all this was scaring me. and right then, my gay friend stepped in with 'that' smile on his face, bent over the table to get to that guy's level, placed his index finger of his right hand on his chest and said 'i've started going to the gym to build up my stamina... can i please have your number!' all of us were like WTF???!!!!
and my gay friend looked so damn serious... i still cant stop laughing when i imagine that other guy's reaction! he appeared to be so puzzled, he just quietly got up and left without a word!
so, now that is the power gay have over guys.

and this was not the first time my gay friend got us out of this kind of a situation so effortlessly. and i have to tell you this other incident. this happend long back. it was at our post annual fashion show party. when almost our whole college was at this disc. again we were the same group dancing at the party. me and my other girl friend get really mad when we are dancing together. we really do get crazy. so we were busy doing our sexy-crazy dance moves when we unitedly decided (at the same moment) to dance with a senior of ours. both of us thought he looked hot! so we slowly danced our way to where he was and then started 'our' dance. we knew it would attaract him :) and he soon joined us. and after we got him all worked up we wanted to leave which was not happening. he woudn't let us leave. and we didnt want to continue with him any further. then my friend said something in my senior's ear and left and left me wondering! and then she got back with this gay friend of mine who joined us in our dance. he surely was having a great time wit our senior but i dont think that our senior was enjoying. he got so pissed with our gay friend that he just couldn't take it anymore. and it was soooo much fun to hold him back to dance with all of us whe all he wanted to do was to run away!!

so, all the girls who have gay friends are really really lucky! value your gift! :D :D