Saturday, October 29, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
ligament fucked. head feels like some elephants are pounding inside it. but this Diwali was one of the very few good ones I've had. Yes, family wasn't around but the latter half of the day, it was just like everyone was home! There is so much to write about every single detail but some details are better in-scripted just in your mind.
If at all there is a time in anyone's life, where they wish they could go back into the past, relive it all because they didn't know back then that it will be soon gone, it was today for me. I know GOD has always been kind and I honestly thank him a lot for THIS.
but, Attachments bring more pain with them. I have always, Always believed that nothing happens without a reason. and i don't know the reason. and i am definitely not strong enough to wait for it to be out in the open.
Why should there be a choice to not endure the pain that has been caused and live anew?
with new freedom, come new Risks.
Better to be in your cocoon and lie comfortably in the darkness. The flash of hope is bound to hurt the pupil of your eyes.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
a lot is there to write about. but i have no clue where t start. coz i dont really know how my brain is working right now. and the songs. god! why do they even make such songs! but then again...i am glad that they do. its not like you're the only person with a messed up life.
chuck it. ill try writing tomorrow.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
i don't have a heart of stone.
and i never wish bad for u.
i can never make you understand
that how much i care for you.
i have always protected you
like my own child.
whatever i have
I've shared with you.
but you will still continue
to believe whats in your head.
i have never written anything
dedicated to one particular,
but here i am, writing for you
i am sorry.
if in any way I've ever hurt you.
Monday, October 3, 2011
As i lie alone here
Clueless of the future
Wishing for a silver lining
Inside my unknown fear
Negotiating in my mind
The losses and the gains
Still trying to find a meaning
In the residues and the remains
One moment, i want to fly
Live again a life where i could dream
But soon enough i am reminded of the voice
From my broken heart, that turns into a scream
And i withdraw my self from this world
Trying to feel safe just like in a mothers womb
I guess, ive given more than ill ever have
So i've accepted being comfortably numb.